Monday, December 27, 2010
It has been long since ive updated
well, im sure nobody read my blog
its ok, ill just make tis a diary
put in my thoughts, feelings e.t.c
thats wat blogs for rite :))
I would just have to shut my eye
and somehow ur presence could be felt
ur warmth when im cold
ur smile tat would melt me
ur eyes tat glow
somewhat i felt happy
i would feel i could tackle any problems
i would start to preserve every moment
but
when the suns up
the moment i open my eyes
reality strikes
there was no warmth, no smile, no glow
onli a blue ceiling
my heart starts to ache, whirlwind of thoughts in my head
just wish
i could sleep and nvr wake up
coz, thats where i get close to u
thts where i could be with u
By watching u from afar, i get to feel that ure happier nw, the activities that u do, the positive attitude...
u like it that way.. but for me, im feeling lonely.. its like the world is against me
i dont feel love
im tat type of guy tat ppl would talk negative..but inside me actually im all good
wrong place at the wrong tyme i guess. My life nw is full of silence, outside i could show tat im ok
but inside me onli god knows.. i have been lying to myself all this while saying i would move on
but the truth is i cant.. i still have u in this heart of mine
ure irreplaceable..
slowly im mending my heart
i just feel lonely now
well, theres frens.. yes they are there
but without the feelings i had b4
silence and loneliness just hit me, it like im in a box, dark and squeezy.. waiting for tat kind soul to open up the box and let me out
~Im always looking forward to seeing u everynite~
