Its just me
im the one making myself hurt
i wish i was him
the one special guy in ur heart
who can read ur feelings
that makes u smile
and be by ur side wenever u are dwn
whats wrong wit me?
im not sure why is it so hard
maybe bcos ive got no one else to turn to
while u have him
my feelings for you have never faded
you left me with hope on me
and now its hard to let that feeling from my grasp
You once made me a cheerful and happy soul
now im like a rotten vegetable
where theres no love
not being cared properly
just do not know whats going to happen in the future
im not looking forward to anything
my life is miserable
not eating well
not sleeping well..
getting into the new year on a bad side
its just another day for me
where i have to fight wit my soul
my heart keeps pumping faster
its going to explode soon
urghhhhhh!
damn..:((
Monday, December 27, 2010
It has been long since ive updated
well, im sure nobody read my blog
its ok, ill just make tis a diary
put in my thoughts, feelings e.t.c
thats wat blogs for rite :))
I would just have to shut my eye
and somehow ur presence could be felt
ur warmth when im cold
ur smile tat would melt me
ur eyes tat glow
somewhat i felt happy
i would feel i could tackle any problems
i would start to preserve every moment
but
when the suns up
the moment i open my eyes
reality strikes
there was no warmth, no smile, no glow
onli a blue ceiling
my heart starts to ache, whirlwind of thoughts in my head
just wish
i could sleep and nvr wake up
coz, thats where i get close to u
thts where i could be with u
By watching u from afar, i get to feel that ure happier nw, the activities that u do, the positive attitude...
u like it that way.. but for me, im feeling lonely.. its like the world is against me
i dont feel love
im tat type of guy tat ppl would talk negative..but inside me actually im all good
wrong place at the wrong tyme i guess. My life nw is full of silence, outside i could show tat im ok
but inside me onli god knows.. i have been lying to myself all this while saying i would move on
but the truth is i cant.. i still have u in this heart of mine
ure irreplaceable..
slowly im mending my heart
i just feel lonely now
well, theres frens.. yes they are there
but without the feelings i had b4
silence and loneliness just hit me, it like im in a box, dark and squeezy.. waiting for tat kind soul to open up the box and let me out
~Im always looking forward to seeing u everynite~
